5 days

What is possibly going to be the best night of my 2008 couldn't really come at a better time. Clearly.


5 days from now I will be taking in my 2nd Coldplay concert. The first one in Vegas was unforgettable and I can only imagine how great this one will be.

Love them. Love Chris Martin. Love the new album.

All that could really make the whole day great is a BYU win over Utah. I'm not holding my breath though.

47 days

There are 47 days until this year is over. I will probably remember 2008 as being one of the worst years of my life. It sad to say, but it couldn't be more true. I've probably cried more this year than the past 5 years combined. And it's not over. I know that there's a chance I will probably cry a good 35 days of the 47 that are left.

Sometimes I wonder why all the things that have happened this year had to happen around the same time. Can't a girl catch a break? Apparently not.

It's funny how people want to understand and be there for you but sometimes there really isn't anything that anyone can do. Sometimes life just sucks. It's basically impossible for anyone to ACTUALLY understand what it is that you are going through. They could think they understand because they had a similar situation but so what? There are so many factors that play into one's life that there is no way for anyone to really understand. And that sucks. You wish that someone could really empathize with you because then it might be a little easier but unfortunately, it's just you.

It's gotten to the point where I don't care what people think about the way I react to anything. They actually don't know anything about what is going on in my head or my life. They can think that I'm overreacting that I'm being dramatic, but that's where they are at fault. Even if they were my very best friend and were literally with me 24/7, they still wouldn't understand. Because it's not their life. If they think I am handling things the wrong way, I'd like to see them be me for one day.

No, I'm going to continue being me. I'm going to continue to have breakdowns and just cry because that is what I need to do. My pillow is going to have mascara stains from crying my eyes out and I'm going to continue to wake up with migraines and swollen eyes from crying myself to sleep. I'm going to be sad because that is all I know how to be right now. Let me have that for 47 more days.

But come January 1, 2009, it's going to be different.

Cross your fingers anyway.


*Sorry about the dramatic post. I just needed to get it out in some way.

Tagged...

Rules:
1.Link who tagged you: Kristine
2. List your quirks
3. Tag 6 other bloggers
4. Post the rules on your blog.

1. I bite my fingernails, all the time. I've done it for as long as I can remember and I can't stop. It's just a bad, ugly habit that I have.

2. I hate waiting for people. I really do. Like if I call you and tell you I'm coming to get you, that means you should probably be ready when I get there. Or at least tell me that you still need a few minutes. Also, if you tell me you're coming at a certain time and don't show up, it irritates me.

3. I get way too into my sports teams. Mostly BYU Football and the Utah Jazz. I get so into it that it makes when they lose hurt that much worse. Like last week when BYU played like CRAP. I'm still not over it and probably won't be for a while. Sometimes I wonder if the heartache my teams cause me is worth it... Yes, it most definitely is.

4. I love watching marathon television. Basically when there's a marathon on of a show that I love, I'll watch it. And this includes the marathons I provide for myself by watching these shows on DVD. Project Runway, Friday Night Lights, CSI, Law and Order, 24, etc. I just love me some good TV.

5. I love Wikipedia. As Michael Scott would say it's "the best thing ever. Anyone in the world can write anything they want about any subject. So you know you are getting the best possible information." :) I always reference it whenever I want to know anything about anything. I know that sometimes it's not always accurate but I still love to read what's on there.

6. I say that I love scary movies, but I don't think that I actually do. I get really excited to go see them and get really pumped up, but then I basically watch the entire movie with my hands covering my eyes and plugging my ears. Another thing about scary stuff though is that I hate Haunted Houses. I think they're gay and I don't ever get scared at them, so I guess that's kindof weird considering I get pretty scared in movies.

7. I immediately change into comfy clothing when I get home from work/school. I hate wearing jeans all day so as soon as I walk in the door, I start unbuttoning.

8. I listen to music any time I can. I love having my ipod with me so I can throw in my earphones when I get the chance. Or at home I plug it into speakers. This has been a problem since I've recently lost my earphones.

9. I never wash my face. Okay, that's untrue because I wash it when I shower. But I never wash it before bed or anything like that. Unless I shower right before bed, I always go to sleep with my makeup from the day still on. It's never caused me any sort of problems so if you think I'm gross, sorry. But an acne-less face without having to wash it is quite nice. ;)

10. I swear way more than I should. Obviously, I should never swear and I wish I could say that was the case. Some of you know how often it really is but for those of you who don't, lets just say that it's more than never. :)

Okay, I tag Megan, Tawny, Tami(you know you want to blog), Amanda, Mele, and McKensie.

A Rare Update

This will probably just make me sound a little bit pathetic but you know what, at this point I don't care what I sound and/or look like to anyone. I've been ill for a couple days now so I've had a lot of time to think and I've noticed that I've been thinking about my life in Facebook statuses lately. It's been a while since I posted so I thought I'd do some sort of "brain dump" in the form of Facebook statuses...

Currently it says "Tara is going home so that her mom can nurse her back the health."

Here are some others...

Tara doesn't know why her body won't allow her to go to sleep before 2:00 a.m. these days.

Tara is in desperate need of a vacation from everything.

Tara thinks her love for Chris Brown is probably getting a bit unhealthy.

Tara wishes she could go back and do things differently.

Tara is stoked for the Jazz season to start.

Tara is done caring.

Tara thinks that boys are stupid and is going to have to be content without them.

Tara wishes she had more motivation to go to the gym everyday. You'd think looking in the mirror everyday would be enough.

Tara realizes that she has been completely stupid.

Tara is thinking that if she is 25 and going to a party in Provo she gives anyone permission to shoot her.

Tara wishes she could afford to move out of Utah.

Tara wishes she could afford to do anything.

Tara is secretly bitter that the New Kids on the Block comeback was received so well while BSB's wasn't. :)

Tara needs a new job where she doesn't have to talk to idiots every 5 minutes.

Tara is super excited to go back to school full time. Weird, I know.

Tara thinks David Archuleta's single is pretty catchy and secretly loves it.

Tara hates rude people.

Tara is not going to vote for Obama just because it's "different" and "cool". In fact, she still doesn't know who she is going to vote for.

Tara is in desperate need of new clothes.

Tara knows that only one person can really understand what she is going through but often times wishes more people could.

Tara thinks Reggie Bush may be one of the most beautiful people alive. And hates that he's dating Kim Kardashian. Yuck.

Tara feels like she needs a to take a "mental health month".

Tara hopes the BYU football team makes it to a BCS bowl and she can go to it.

8/8/08

Here are 8 things I'd rather be doing right now than sitting here at work.

4 Things I could easily be doing:
1. Sleeping in my bed.
2. On a plane to anywhere outside of Utah. Okay, I could more easily be driving out of Utah but whatev.
3. Watching a sappy chick flick.
4. Laying on my bed watching Law and Order: SVU (my new favorite).

4 things that I can fantasize about doing:
1. Getting ready to go to the Opening Ceremonies in Beijing.
2. Laying out at the beach in Hawaii.
3. Riding Splash Mountain at Disneyland.
4. Enjoying myself on an African Safari.

You won't believe what I'm about to say...

If you know me at all or have read this blog you will know that I LOVE this guy:

If you know me at all, have read this blog, or have even brought up NBA basketball to me in a passing conversation, you will know that I absolutely depise this guy:

And now they are teammates:

Which means that I'm now being forced to cheer for Kobe. It pains me to say it, let alone do it, but I guess it's a must. Of course I want Deron to do well. And if that means throwing alleyoops to Kobe-freaking-Bryant, then I guess I have to do it.

I don't like it at all. Not one bit.

Blogging

I'm not very good at it, let's be honest. I haven't updated in over a month and I'm not sure I really have anything exciting to blog about now. I wonder if I should just give it up. I probably won't, but I need some ideas on what is blogworthy as it seems nothing in my life is right now. I'm getting a new camera some time this week so hopefully I can start taking lots of pictures of all the exciting things (nothing) going on in my life!

The Good Life

I went to the Kanye West concert the other night. So much fun. Ran into Zac Efron there. We had a moment. He was with his High School Musical posse though so it didn't last too long. They're all so cute...not. Kanye was great. Rihanna performed as well and I now have a girl-crush on her. I also formed a new love for Lupe Fiasco. So worth the money.

I am totally loving this song right now.

2 of my faves together...Chris Martin and Kanye!

My Summer Can Officially Begin

I love this show. It makes my summer every year and will hopefully continue to do that this year. Who am I kidding? I have no doubt that it will do just that!

The Plan

One of my biggest pet peeves is when hot guys date ugly girls. Okay, that's a lie. It doesn't usually affect me, unless I have a crush on them. Then it's hella annoying. Especially if I would be more than willing to give up all my standards and date them too, even though they could very well be a big, fat loser. Case and point: Quincy and LaNasty*. Quincy is an attractve guy who I could almost guarantee get any girl in Provo. He was a well known athlete around here and has now moved on to bigger and better things, aka, more money. His girlfriend, LaNasty, is exactly how you would picture someone with the nickname "LaNasty". She's fugly. And I'm not just saying that. I admit that sometimes I've said that about girls who really aren't that ugly and basically said it to make myself feel better. But that is not the case. LaNasty is not cute. Not even a little bit. One time I even saw her wearing hot pink tapered jeans. Really?? That has never been acceptable. Not even in the 80's! So this is The Plan - I need to break that shiz up! Seriously. The question is how. Any ideas/suggestions/info(if you've figured out who Quincy and LaNasty are) would be very much appreciated. The world would be a much prettier/better place. Trust me.

PS. I know I'm a creep.



*Names have been changed.

Textually Active

Texting is not my favorite thing to do. I do it though, probably more than I should. It seems that I have all these texting relationships with people that I'm not that great of friends with, although we have met and hung out (none of them are strange creeps I've never met). A few of them don't live near me and it makes me wonder if they even lived in the same state, what sort of friendship/relationship we would have. As in, would we even hang out? Would we even talk to each other? Would we maybe even like each other? It's just weird and I need to stop the texting. Verizon knows it is costing me a fortune.

No Guts, No Glory.

I don't think anyone fully understands my love for this man.

As in it really is too bad he has kids because the whole marriage thing wouldn't be enough to stop me! Okay, that's a joke. Kindof.

My New Favorite Show

This show is basically amazing. Deion is ridiculous but I love it. And their kids are so cute, it's not even funny. Watch it.

Goodness

In February of 2006 I attended the best concert I've ever been to. My sister and I drove down to Las Vegas with my dad to see Coldplay at the MGM Grand. We had a great time and Chris Martin and co. put on a fantastic show. I've been waiting and waiting for Coldplay to go on another U.S. Tour and the other day I opened up my Coldplay E-newsletter to see that they had announced their U.S. Tour dates. I got all excited and figured I'd be able to see them in Vegas again. As I scrolled through the tour dates, I came to the very last one and literally rejoiced out loud when I saw that they are stopping in Salt Lake City! It's their last tour date on November 22. I'm so freakin' excited! Coldplay just makes me happy. I'm going to try and see them in Vegas as well and make a weekend out of that trip since it falls on the weekend after my birthday. Hopefully it all works out!!

Here's a few pics from when Kelli and I saw them a few years ago:

Kelli and I anxiously waiting for the concert to start.

Chris Martin, doin' his thang. ;)

Kelli and I after the concert.

My Church-Going Thoughts

So yesterday was my first day back in a real single's ward since Fall 2006. It was interesting, to say the least. Here are some of my thoughts on the whole experience:

• 9 AM church sucks.
• Having church in a place where the BYU Men's Volleyball team plays is weird.
• For some reason my ward felt the need to split the Relief Society and Elder's Quorum into 2 different groups. I don't get it and I don't like it. Our lesson in RS was about unity and including people and I'm not sure having 2 separate groups builds any sort of unity in a ward.
• I've always felt that Sacrament meeting was supposed to be, you know, sort of a reverent meeting. But there's something about being in the room with mirrors covering the walls, with sayings like "Practice like Champions" hanging behind the Bishop, and where the Cougarettes practice that seems to kind of take the spirit away.
• There's a certain BYU football player in my ward who's pretty great. Ask me in about 3 weeks and I'll probably be able to inform you that we're dating. I always knew I was meant to be an NFL wife.
• One of my pet peeves is when people crack/smack/pop/or chew gum like a cow. In fact, I could probably dedicate an entire blog to how much it bugs me. If you're gonna chew gum in church, that's fine, but don't chew it so loudly or pop bubbles during the Sacrament!
• Yesterday was the first time I've attended a single's ward for the first time and not cared one bit about looking good/impressing anyone. It was a great feeling. It may or may not have had something to do with the fact that I had to wake up at the butt crack of dawn so there was hardly any time to care.
• We were able to make some friends in the ward who like the Jazz and we've already planned a party to watch the game Wednesday night.
• Rugby players love Mele. :)
• There was a cute boy in my ward and I could maybe see myself liking him. That's a huge MAYBE. Two major problems though: He doesn't watch TV and he's short.

Overall, I have a good feeling about this ward. I want to get more involved and go to activities this time around because I've never really done that with any of the single's wards I've been in. I think that would be good for me. Here's to me waking up in time to actually make it there for the whole summer!

I Suck

So I never blogged about my trip to Key West back in February. Oopsie. I really wanted to and have basically written up about 75% of the post already, I just never got around to finishing it so it's just sitting in my list of posts, waiting for me to click that "Publish Post" button. Just so you know, I fully plan on posting it, even though it's been close to 3 months since I got home. It was a good time and I want to be able to remember it!

Movin' Out

So yesterday I moved into my new apartment. I'm not completely moved in but I'm getting there. I hate the whole moving process. I haven't done it since I moved to and from Key West last year when I had to pack everything into 2 suitcases. That was hard! I met my roommates and luckily they seem pretty cool. We haven't really had a conversation longer than 2 minutes though so we'll see. We've all just been unpacking though so we've all basically been confined to our rooms. We each have our own room so that is going to be way nice. I need some decorations for my room though. It's so bare! I even whipped out the old posters that Kristine and I purchased during our good times as roommates. I don't know that I'll put any of them up, but take a look at my poll and tell me which one you think I should put up, if I decide to do so! My personal choice is Adam Brody (the poster I stole from my klepto roommate a few years ago) because he's a dream boat!

Summa Lovin'

So if you've noticed my new poll then you've probably gathered that I'm moving out on Monday. I am so freakin' excited, it's not even funny. I've been living at home ever since I got back from Key West and seriously, it's time. Time to leave my room downstairs and never come back. Well, that's the plan anyway. We'll see how it goes. I've been thinking of some plans/goals for myself to do this summer. Here are a few of them:

• Eat lots and lots of Otter Pops.
• Catch up on LOST. I'm SO behind.
• Lay out 3 times a week.
• Go on lots of road trips where I only spend $20 total.
• Get in shape for the possible trip to Havasupai (Still not a sure thing though, Tawn)
• Take lots and lots of pictures.
• Watch a lot of TV.
• July 11th = Thunder from Down Under.
• Sleep a lot.
• Learn how to cook at least one thing.
• Relive my childhood memories at Disneyland.
• Go to sleep before midnight at least once a week. HA!
• SYTYCD.
• See option 3 on my poll.

Clearly, my plans have AWESOME written all over them and clearly, my priorities are in the right spot. My summer is going to be frickin' awesome. And to think that this is just a smidgen of what I have planned for myself! If anyone is interested in joining me for ANY of these activities, please, don't hesitate to call. ;)

Just another Saturday night in Provo...

One thing that some of my friends and I like to do is go out dancing. Something that I think is normal for single, 21 year old girls to enjoy doing(yeah, I get that this is Provo and we should probably be trying to find a husband or something but I'm over that whole idea). The dancing scene in Provo isn't the greatest but we always try to make it the best we can. Personally, I just enjoy dancing with my girlfriends and don't really care to go and impress any of the guys there. Frankly, I hope that my future husband isn't spending his Saturday nights on Center Street in Provo, dancing with girls who wear clothes that they shouldn't. So needless to say, I'm not going with the idea in my head that I'm going to meet my future spouse or anything, I'm just going for a good time. Last night, we thought about going, but decided against it once we got there because we didn't want to pay for something we knew probably wouldn't be worth the money anyway. So we just chilled outside for a bit talking to some friends that we saw there. At one point, some sort of fight broke out inside and all the "security guards" had to attend to that. So a few of us just walked inside the door to see what was going on/try and get in without having to pay. In all honesty, I don't think we would have stayed longer than 5 minutes anyway but we didn't even have the chance to decide that ourselves before one of the security guards on some power trip randomly yelled specifically at us to "GET OUT!!!". I just pretended like I didn't see him and walked out the door. No later than 3 minutes after that the security guard hunted us down in the crowd of people outside and yelled at us again. This time he told us to "NEVER COME BACK!" Huh? I was so confused. I didn't understand why he'd felt the need to search us out and yell at us, 3 girls who hadn't gone out of our way to do anything to him. When he'd "asked" us to leave the building, we'd left without even a word yet he still felt like he needed to scream at us to never come back again. I mean, really? Really?? Well guess what. We weren't planning on coming back anyway cuz they are LAME. If it wasn't for 16 year old hookers and a bunch of creeps you wouldn't have your minimum wage paying job anyway! Thanks to Mele, we were able to get that message across to at least some of the people there, even if the ugly security guard didn't hear it all. :)

An open letter to the Utah Jazz

Dear Utah Jazz,

On the eve of the playoffs and the wake of another disturbing performance on the road the other night I just want to say, if you don't beat the Rockets in the first round, the Davies household will be a very, very unhappy place and trust me, my family will hate you for losing more than I will. Don't do it.

Regards,
Tara Davies

PS. Kyle, this is grounds for breaking up. You're lucky I'm a forgiving person...

What ARE you doing? Whatever it is, it's definitely not defense and it would be in your best interest to NEVER DO IT AGAIN. Thank you and see you tonight. ;)

Weekly Poll

A few of my friends have started to include polls on their blogs. I decided to add that element to my blog as well. Check out my first poll about a weekly poll in the right corner. (Oh and sorry about the hell word. That's just the type of enthusiasm I want you to have about the polls!;) Just kidding.) I already know that not a lot of people read this blog, which is fine so in all honesty, I only expect a few votes each time but whatev. It gives me something else to do with this blog. Feel free to participate in the poll whenever you please!

Not tagged. Just bored.

Twenty years ago I...
1) was beginning a life-long friendship with McKensie Mulliner
2) was being spoiled by Wacko Grandma (being the first-born grandchild definitely has it's perks!)
3) was 1. I wasn't doing a lot.

Ten years ago I...
1) was getting over my 4 year crush on A.O. and continuing my 3 year crush on B.S.
2) was one of the taller girls in the 6th grade. Pretty sure that only lasted about 1 more year before everyone around me continued to grow while I stayed the same height.
3) was lusting after Bryon Russell and loving the Jazz just as much as I do today. Maybe even more since they were making to the Finals and all that good stuff.

Five years ago I...
1) was playing high school basketball. I know, weird to think I actually played sports at one time.
2) was not doing homework and sluffing school a lot...things haven't changed too much. :)
3) wore an ugly dress to my Junior Prom.

Three years ago I...
1) was dating a short guy who took my VL and wanted to marry me.
2) was at my second semester at BYU and not really loving it.
3) rekindled my love for the best show ever, Felicity.

One year ago I...
1) was living on a tropical island and having the time of my life.
2) didn't surprise anyone when I told them I was making out with a black guy. ;) Oh and he was my boyfriend.
3) was showcasing color-changing tee's to drunken, white-trash slobs.

So far this year I have...
1) traveled back to Key West and almost didn't return.
2) not cried once.
3) been very sleep deprived.

Yesterday I...
1) woke up at 4 to take Lou to the airport.
2) had a phone conversation with someone and can't recall one thing that was said. I don't even remember saying hello.
3) watched Memphis ruin my life by playing like they've never shot a free throw in their lives. WTF. I could've used that money, dang it!

Today I...
1) have been at work since what feels like the butt-crack of dawn...even though it was actually only 9.
2) ate a Double Cheeseburger from McDonald's that was pure luxury.
3) will go home and watch the Jazz beat on stupid New Orleans. Here's hoping anyway.

Tomorrow I will...
1) go to school, I guess.
2) probably watch American Idol.
3) take a test that I will have not studied for.

In the next year I will...
1) watch Andy Roddick play in one tennis match before I lose interest in him due to his recent engagement.
2) travel somewhere that is totally fab and get a killer tan.
3) find my EC at "Marriage Cove". HA! Kidding.

Cradle Robber?

I know I said I like 'em young in my last post and this may be pushing it a little seeing as David Archuleta is 17 years old but good heck, this guy can sing!



Okay, I don't really have a crush on him but seriously, he's good. I could listen to him sing over and over and between you and me, that might not be a far stretch from reality. :)

Thank you People.com

In the wake of this recent tragic news I've decided it's time for me to come out and attest to the fact that THIS is actually true. I can attest to this simply because Chris and I are actually dating. Yes, I like 'em young.

It's no secret that I'm a fan

Right now I am totally putting off starting a paper that is due on Monday but oh well. Last night the Clippers were in town to play the Jazz. My uncle Mike hooked us up with some tickets and we had a great time. We had 4 pretty good tickets so Mele, Kristine and Jordan came with.

My two favorite players on the team.

Deron Williams had an awesome dunk over the ugly 7-footer, Kaman. I just love him. Deron, that is. Not Kaman. Kyle Korver makes the list cuz he's good looking and I won't even deny the fact that it's basically the only reason he's a favorite. Oh, and I guess he's a pretty good 3-point shooter. :)

Apparently President Monson is a Jazz fan. I spotted him across the court during the first half but wasn't sure if it was him. It was hard to imagine him just at a Jazz game on a Friday night, but it's pretty great that it was him. We kept zooming in with our camera's trying to figure out if it was really him. This was one of the pictures I took in the process and we still didn't know if it was him for sure. At half time people started gathering around him and taking pictures so we decided that it had to be him. After the game, there was a huge crowd around him as he left the court. It was pretty great to see that more people were excited to see President Monson than Carlos Boozer who was out there as well.

Speaking of Carlos Boozer, I attempted to take this picture of him as he ran off the court. It's all blurry, I know, but will you please just look at the gem of a picture it ended up being? Check out the lady's face in the bottom right corner! Ha ha.

It was fun to be able to go down on the court after the game and just hang out on the Jazz bench, even if we didn't get to meet any of the players or anything. Mele did fulfill a life-long dream though and get to meet Ron Boone. Don't worry that we definitely got a picture with him. :) He was a nice guy and asked Mele all about her knee.

Overall, I had a great time. Here's some other pictures we took while we were there:

It's always a good time when the Jazz win!

Jason McElwan

I have a special place in my heart for stories like this. It's just a little different than the dog video from the other day. :)

I heard about this a while back but recently saw this video again and thought I'd share it. I love seeing everyone get so excited for Jason but my favorite part is when he says, "I just caught fire. I was hot as a pistol!"

Yikes

My brothers and I laughed so hard when we saw this on Jay Leno the other night. How do you train your dog to do this? Pretty sure my dog would hide if she heard that music!

Hater

Listen, I realize that I've posted a lot about basketball (mostly ugly players) lately but hey, it's March, which means March Madness so what else would you expect? Today was not a good day. It just wasn't. First of all, I had to work all day which is never fun. I come home and prep myself for a night filled with basketball only to watch BYU lose and then watch freaking Kobe Bryant and the Lakers beat the Jazz. I hate my life.

Speaking of Kobe...I kid you not, if there were words to describe how much I hated that guy, they certainly would be swear words. That's the thing though. Not even swear words can do my hatred for him justice. I CANNOT stand him. I hate watching him play. I hate watching him speak. I hate his commercials. I hate reading about him. And let's not forget the fact that he's an alleged rapist and if not that, an adulterer who had to buy his wife off with a 4 million dollar ring. There isn't one thing I like about the guy. Except for the fact that he's not on the Jazz because then I'd be forced to cheer for him.

Like how I went all Perez Hilton on ya?! :)

He's such a whiner. He whines after EVERY call that goes against him. Shut up already!!! No, I'm not stupid and I realize he's a pretty darn good player. But I just can't stand him! He gives me serious rage, if ya couldn't tell. I admit it. I am a hater. I HATE Kobe Bryant.

Looking back.

Let me paint the picture for you. It was March 2005. I was 18 years old and not even a year out of high school. I was in my second semester at BYU and living at Liberty Square. 18 years old and having some sort of talk about love and marriage with my first boyfriend, Jason. Yeah.... The conversation went something like this:


Jason: I really do love you, Tara.
Me: (Awkward smile)
Jason: I know we haven't been dating long but I do.
Me: (Avoiding eye contact and more awkward smiling). Okay.
Jason: You don't have to say anything back but I just want you to know.
Me: I honestly don't know how I feel. (I don't know if I said it in those words exactly, but something along those lines)
Jason: The other day my mom asked me if I wanted to marry you.
Me (thinking): Oh shiz. Did he really just say that?
Jason: And I know this is weird but I think that I could. Not soon as in like the summer or anything like that, but you know, one day.
Me: Really? Jason, I'm only 18. In all honesty, I'm not ready to get married. I won't rule out the possibilty of "one day" completely right now because of the fact that we are currently dating and that would be dumb. I realize that if that isn't at least a possibity for the future, there's no real point in continuing our relationship (Spoken like a true freshman girl at BYU, I know). But, like I said, I'm 18 and not even close to being ready. Hello, I don't even love you! You're short!

I'm pretty sure the conversation lasted a bit longer then that but you get the jist of it.

And that was that. And basically the beginning of the end for Jason and me. I got freaked out and stopped liking him a few weeks later but dated him for 2 more months anyway. ha ha. Then we broke up. The break up wasn't a bad one but about 1 month after we broke up, we were supposed to go to Stadium of Fire together(something we'd planned before the break up and said we'd still do after the break up). The day of the actual event, he called me up and said he just didn't want to go. I got mad at him because I thought that was lame and we never spoke again. No real sweat off my back though, I didn't really care to continue to be his friend. We didn't have a lot in common (He liked fishing, the outdoors, and camping. I liked sleeping, traveling to places where I could sleep in a hotel, dancing, and the televsion.) In September of that same year, I found out he was engaged. I can't exactly remember but I think I laughed out loud when I heard it. It wasn't suprising at all, given the conversation we'd had that one night in March. Apparently they only dated for like 3 weeks and then he proposed. Unreal, right?

The reason I bring all this up is because last night, I discovered his family blog. As in a blog dedicated to him, his wife and their kid George (I would have NEVER allowed that), who they call Georgie. I admit that my internet researching skills, if you will, are better than anyone else I know but it was like the blog just opened up in front of me. I didn't even have to look for it! Anyway, of course I immediately read it and let me just say, that was probably the best bullet I ever dodged. He's fat now so in addition to his shortness, he's a chubby, short man. I'm not saying it's a good thing I didn't marry him because he's now chubby and short, 2 things I am also. But reading that blog and thinking back to that conversation and thinking about how that relationship could've potentially played out really made me thankful that I realized that at 18, I definitely wasn't ready to get married. Funny thing is, it's been 3 years and I'm still nowhere close. Why do I live in Utah County again?

Side note: It really is weird to look back and see that I even liked Jason. There really wasn't anything wrong with him, besides his love for the wild outdoors, but what I'm saying is that my taste in guys has completely changed since then. He was cuter back then and he was a good guy but it's just weird to think about myself now dating someone like him. Pretty sure it would NEVER happen.

One Day

I love these. One day I will be rich enough to purchase them (the lounge chair is $3,650.00) to put in my beautifully landscaped backyard next to the large pool. Or on the roof of my apartment in my garden.

Found at Apartment Therapy

Call me Autumn, Autumn Rose

I definitely copied this from some random persons blog and I'm not going to lie, I had fun doing it. As you're about to find out, Autumn Rose is my Bond Girl name, thus the title.

1. Rockstar Name (first pet & current car):
Lexi Honda
2. Gangsta Name (favorite ice cream flavor & favorite cookie):
Vanilla Chocolate Chip
3. Fly Girl Name (first initial, first 4 letters of last name):
T-Davi
4. Detective Name (favorite color, favorite animal):
Green Dog
5. Soap Opera Name (middle name & birthplace):
Marie Provo
6. Star Wars Name (first 3 letters of last name, first 2 letters of first name):
Dav Ta
7. Superhero Name ("the," 2nd favorite color, favorite drink):
The Pink Doctor Pepper
8. Nascar Name (grandfathers' first names):
Larry Dennis
9. Witness Protection Program Name (mom & dad's middle names):
Marie Leon
10. Weather Anchor Name (5th grade teacher & major city beginning with the same letter):
Almond Atlanta
11. Bond Girl Name (favorite season, favorite flower):
Autumn Rose
12. Cartoon Name (favorite fruit, article of clothing you are wearing right now + "ie" or "y"):
Peach Jeansie
13. Hippy Name (what you ate for breakfast, favorite tree):
Banana Maple
14: Rockstar Tour Name ("the"+your favorite hobby, favorite weather element+"tour"):
The Sleeping Sunny Tour

These guys make millions and I still feel bad for them.

I know I just posted the other day about another ugly player in the NBA but all these Jazz games I'm watching are leading me to think that maybe the Jazz, as a team, really aren't that ugly.

How can this guy honestly look in the mirror everyday and think that that THING growing on his chin makes him look good?? I'm sorry, but he's not that great looking to begin with and the beard is definitely not doing him any favors.

There are some really unfortunate looking NBA players. I always thought the Jazz got stuck with some lookers but let's be honest, adding Kyle Korver really took them out of the contest for the ugliest NBA team. Call me a terrible person for posting about ugly people, but some of these guys might actually make you laugh out loud when you look at them. And like I said, they're making millions so I don't feel THAT bad about it. Check out this guy, for example:

Or this guy:

Wow, I am a terrible person, aren't I? Shoot, I just realized both these guys play for the Clippers. Looks like they get the title of Ugliest NBA Team.

Another One Bites the Dust

Okay, the title is a total joke. :) One of my best friends, Kristine, got married the other day and I really couldn't be happier for her! We've had some good times over the years and I thought trying out this Mosaic Maker that Sarah recently used on her blog would be a good way to share a few of my favorite memories of Kristine. Here ya go:

Best of luck in the married world Kristine! I love you!

Fug and Fab

FUG=

Dirk Nowitzki is easily one of the ugliest people ever.

FAB=

I prefer my NBA boyfriends to look more like this. Especially when they have such good-looking jerseys like Kyle here does. :)

Things that I love...

1. Sleeping in
2. TV shows on DVD.
3. Family inside jokes
4. Space heaters
5. Fans
6. Classical music when I'm sleepy
7. A clean room
8. Traveling
9. Days off
10. Coldplay
11. The beach
12. My down comforter
13. Having no homework
14. Dancing
15. The Utah Jazz (when they win of course)
16. Finding a new song to obsess over
17. My friends
18. Talking to nice people at work
19. Going to the movies
20. Reading a good book
21. When it's 65 degrees or higher
22. Flip Flops
23. Andy Roddick
24. Sandwiches
25. My Family
26. Renting a movie to watch by myself
27. Random road trips
28. That I don't have to dye my hair
29. Sweat pants
30. Trashy MTV shows like The Guantlet and The Real World
31. Awesome MTV shows like Rob and Big :)
32. The bumper sticker application on Facebook
33. Having a boyfriend on every sports team known to man
34. Having fake boyfriends period
35. Reading strangers blogs
36. Having something to look forward to
37. Solitaire
38. My Ipod
39. Chris Brown
40. Friday Night Lights and with that comes Tim Riggins
41. Athletes- hot ones
42. Having my own car
43. Imdb.com
44. Airports
45. Singing loud out in my car
46. Gchat
47. DVR
48. My dog Millie
49. People.com and any other source of celebrity gossip
50. BYU Sports

The list could easily continue on, and probably will some time in the future.

David A.

I always love myself when I put off writing a paper until midnight the day before it is due, and even more when at that point I find myself getting distracted by videos like this:



I don't usually watch American Idol (because in all honesty, I don't really like it) until like the very last episode and even at that point, I usually don't really care who wins. I actually have yet to watch a full episode this year. I have, however, heard that this little guy from Utah has got a pretty amazing voice. I looked up his performances on YouTube and I've got to say, he's good. He's just so adorable and so talented! I probably won't start watching the show but will at least keep myself updated on his status and his performances via YouTube. I'm hoping he makes it far!

Looks like I'm moving to the South!

I've lived in Utah my whole life and as much as I love it here(not that much), I really don't think I want to live here for the rest of my life. I recently found this quiz online at www.findyourspot.com that I took and it calculated my answers and provided me with a bunch of places that I should supposedly live. Most of my results were in the southern region of the United States, a majority of them in Texas. It was interesting because I probably wouldn't even consider living in a few of them, mainly El Paso, Texas but I did find the results to be kind of fun.

My top 5 cities were:
1. Norfolk, Virginia
2. Memphis, Tennessee
3. Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
4. Little Rock, Arkansas
5. Fort Worth, Texas

Out of those 5 I could probably only see myself living in Norfolk, Virginia but I would never think to move there on my own. I would never even consider living in any of the others except for maybe Fort Worth.

Of the rest of the results, I'll tell you a few that I think I would actually like.

In no particular order:
1. Chesapeake-Virgina Beach, Virginia (actually came in 7th place)
My aunt and uncle live there (shout out to Aunt Tami) and I hear it's pretty great.
2. Charlotte, North Carolina (9th place)
Why, I'm not exactly sure but I would consider it.
3. Tampa, Florida (12th place)
I visited there on my way home from Key West last year and I loved it.
4. Austin, Texas (13th place)
It's Texas and I really don't think I'd mind living there some day. Plus my future husband, Andy Roddick, resides in this town. :)
5. Charleston, South Carolina (17th place)
Let's face it. Anywhere near the ocean is a possibility in my mind. And Charleston gets 0" of snowfall each year. Sounds like Heaven to me!

It was quite interesting to see what my results were because like I said, I probably wouldn't think of a lot of those places on my own. It's not like I'm really going to reference this quiz when it comes time to decide where to live in the future but it was fun to do. And the best thing about that quiz is that none of my results were located in Utah! :)

Good Things

Tomorrow I'll be headed here:

That's right. I'm headed back to Key West. I'm super excited to get out of Utah and the snow. Y'all better hope I just come back. It's currently 76 degrees in Key West and 30 degrees in Provo. I'm pretty sure coming back to this crappy weather will be the hardest thing ever. It'll be fun to see some friends from there and to experience Key West without having to worry about going to work and what not, especially now that I'm 21. ;)

On another note, I just can't say it enough but if you are not watching Friday Night Lights, you are seriously missing out. Like, for real. I couldn't love Tim Riggins any more if he were a real person. And if you know me at all you'll know that I'm not usually into the long-haired, greasy drunks. For some reason though, Tim just does it for me.

Just look at him. Yeah, he's a dreamboat. I'll say it right here that if this show gets canceled, I will fall into a deep depression.

Anything and Everything

I figured it was about time I updated this thing. I must admit that my last post was basically a filler post. I didn’t have time to write anything, nor did I even know what to write about so I just posted those ugly pictures of me and my sister. So basically it's been a whole month since I last posted! Wow. I know my followers must be really upset! ;)

Anyway, I figured I'd make this more of a post about several different things so it may be a little on the long side. I thought that it would be a good way to post about some things that I could probably dedicate a whole post to if I really wanted but I either wasn't sure if they deserved their own post and/or I know that I would never get around to posting about all of them anyway. Here it goes:

I’ve decided to take up tanning again. I’ve gone through phases where I’ve gone a lot but I haven’t been in about 6 months. I got really tan after living in Key West and spending a lot of the summer in the sun and it’s really surprised me how fast it went away. It’s a little depressing actually. I’m pastey. I know, I know, I’m just paying for skin cancer. But hey, I am my mother’s daughter.

I could easily dedicate a whole post to this next one but I’m not sure I want to electronically post my New Year’s resolutions just to come back next January and see that I didn’t keep them. That doesn’t mean that I’m not writing them on paper or anything but I can easily dispose of that once I’ve given up on the last one. Actually, I’m quite determined to keep them this year. At least the most important ones. I actually haven’t gotten off to a great start seeing as it’s already over a week into January and I haven’t even started them. Now that I'm settled into work and school I'm going to get started on Monday! :)

I will admit that one of my resolutions is to make new friends. I love my friends and all, but a lot of them seem to think that now is the time to get married and all that crap. Who knows what they are thinking, right? So I figure that now is a better time than ever to just make some new ones. Actually, I guess the right way to phrase that would be to just expand my group of friends. Hopefully I can find a way to do that since I’m not that social and living at home.

I’m pretty irate at UVSC right now. I’m sure most of you have heard of ratemyprofessors.com, right? Well I go there every semester to help me decide what teachers to sign up for. Last semester I had an awesome English teacher and did really well in the class. I had the opportunity to sign up for him again but decided that maybe a little variety would be good. So I signed up for this guy who had pretty good reviews on ratemyprofessors and was supposed to be pretty easy (not a lot of papers) but also teach you a lot. I go to the first class on Friday and realize that UVSC has gone and changed the professor to some other lady. Someone I don’t even know about and (after checking her out on ratemyprofessors) certainly would have never signed up for her myself! She didn’t even show up the first day and when we went over the syllabus, I just got even more irate because there is a freaking 25 page research paper! Not to mention effing oral presentations which are my WORST! UGH. It couldn’t really be worse especially because I could’ve been in my last teachers class. At this point I feel like it’s too late to try and add another class because I’ve already missed 2 times. I’m just seriously peeved about it and can’t even think about it without getting all worked up!

Yes, I wear flip flops during the winter. Yes, I realize there is snow on the ground. Yes, my feet get cold sometimes. Yes, I'm going to keep doing it. So what if I wear flip flops all winter long? I like them and they are comfortable. I get so much crap for it but I just don’t want to give in to the fact that I live in a climate that requires me to wear closed toe shoes.

The Austrailian Open starts in a few days. I’m excited to be able to watch Andy Roddick play again. Michelle and I will probably have some late nights and/or early mornings watching him play but I’m looking forward to it!

Christmas was good this year. From Santa I got a new iPod and it’s way nice. I’ve already decided what I want from Santa next year though. My very own puppy that looks just like the picture above. I can’t wait.

Sarah and I went to the Vegas Bowl a few weeks ago. We had a lot of fun. Freakin’ BYU football stresses me out but we were very glad that we won! Even if it took having a little bit of luck!

I really want to move out of my house. Bad. Living here really isn’t that bad but I know what it’s like living away from here and I seem to enjoy that a little bit more. I’m definitely moving out for the Summer if not before then. The only requirement is that I have my own room.

Speaking of my room, it’s SO clean right now and it’s so nice! For those of you who know me at all, have ever lived with me, or have even gotten a glimpse of my room know that an extremely clean room doesn’t happen very often! It’s really great having it clean and even though I say this every time I clean it, I really hope I can keep it clean at least for a little while!

So at the beginning of every sports season a few of my friends and I pick out our boyfriends on the teams. We have our Football BF’s and Basketball BF’s. It just makes watching the games a little bit more fun when you have a crush to cheer for a little bit harder than the rest of the team. :) The funny thing is that this year I’ve gotten closer to my B-ball BF than I’ve ever gotten to any of my sports bf’s before. It’s kindof crazy but pretty freaking funny. He may or may not even have my phone number programmed into his cell phone(which I know he'll never call) and we may or may not have had some sort of contact last weekend(which he probably doesn't even remember). But hey, it doesn't matter to me. It's the whole idea that I picked him out before the season even started which makes the story so funny! :) I'm awesome, I know.

And speaking of BF’s…I’ve been missing Lou a little bit more lately. I’m not really sure why but I think it may be due to the fact that it was the holiday’s and everyone seems to have that “Special Someone” and it just sucks because the only reason I don’t right now is because he lives on the other side of the country. It’s just been like this ever since he left after visiting over Thanksgiving. I knew saying goodbye again wasn’t going to be fun but I didn’t imagine it’d be almost worse than the first time. He’s wanting to leave on a mission sometime this summer so I really want to take a trip back to Key West before he leaves. Especially because I’ll probably never go back to Key West after he leaves. Hopefully it all works out and I can go. The only thing stopping me would be money so any donations will be accepted. :)

Another thing that I’m pretty irate about is this new internet blocking thing my dad has put on our computers. It actually has a lot to do with the lack of posting lately. It makes it pretty hard for me to view blogs and it really angers me. I’ll try and be better though.

As I mentioned before all my friends are feeling some sort of need to get engaged/married lately so I’m just going to take this time to say a collective Congrats! Congrats Kristine and Jordan, Devrie and Beni on getting engaged and congrats to McKensie and Jeremy on getting hitched! I hope you all live happily ever after. If you ever need a babysitter, give me a call and I can give you some names of some people who might be interested. :)

Hope you all appreciate the update! :)